at the urge of sam 2

i'm writing in here. i know you guys definitely don't hang on my every word...so i figured it'd be hardly noticed if i was gone for a while. that being said...i'll probably be on hiatus until after summer class (july 2nd). things are insane. i feel sort of like i've been stretched to the point that i'm paper thin. in a nutshell.

maybe i'll keep going while i'm at here though...

i was talking to Trista today (the girl my age who works in Marketing with me) about guys. and how i've been wondering if i've started to lower my standards because its been so long* since i've had a boyfriend, or for that matter, even kissed a guy. i will stop now for a disclaimer: if you are a family member and this makes you feel uncomfortable, or if you just plain don't want to hear about this and related topics...you may stop reading now and skip to the bottom of the post. anywho, its just cause, i sort of feel like i'm on the brink of settling. or that i've been acting like it. the guys i like, or think i could like, or have liked over the past year, really aren't up to my usual par. and its sort of makes me think i'm getting desperate. which is a bad place to be when it comes to boyfriends. i don't know. its one of those internal battles i never seem to get over. its the something is going to happen when you least expect it vs. go make it happen. gag. i want to stop talking about this now. lol.

tomorrow is the birthday party at work with Marketing is hosting. so i'm going to be there at 7:15am. whoa. and then another day of Celebrating Excellenc which is a training program we host for new hires offsite. its fun. and sort of exhausting. but friday i get to go see Transformers 2 in imax. and hopefully relax.

see you in a couple weeks.

* four years