Isn't It Nice to Know That the Lining is Silver

alright, so about that 12 page story i have to have done by Tuesday...its not going so well. its now the weekend and i'm stuck. or more like procrastinating. but really...its saturday. please let it be okay that i'm not working on it. lol.

in other news...i told a boy that i like him. and i know, there's like 3 or less of you who actually read this, so you probably know who he is. but it was really kind of horrible. the actual event of it. i'm not the kind of person that just does those things...so my stomach was all tied up in little knots. i kept unbuttoning and rebuttoning the bottom button of my vest. things seemed to go well though. for the most part. and i doubt anything is going to come of it.

the weird thing to me is, i'm actually fairly upset that nothing is going to happen. and i didn't think i like him a ton. i mean, i knew i liked him...but not like i needed him to be my boyfriend this minute kind of thing. so here's my theory...although i like him, and would like it if he were my boyfriend, its just hard to take that i won't be getting a boyfriend period. like that i won't be getting anyone at all. right now. does that make sense? just kind of let down that i will continue to be alone. that's probably how i'd put it.

depressing right? lol. i think i just thought that since i was the one taking action that somehow things would come out in my favor. but that is not always how life works.

okay, i'm off to not write my story or do any sort of homework at all.